Category Archives: Reflections

Dreams of Late Summer

Here on a summer night in the grass and lilac smell
Drunk on the crickets and the starry sky,
Oh what fine stories we could tell
With this moonlight to tell them by.

A summer night, and you, and paradise,
So lovely and so filled with grace,
Above your head, the universe has hung its lights,
And I reach out my hand and touch your face.

I sit outside today, at the picnic table on our side porch. I was called out here; in late summer, the cicadas and insects of the plains are so loud that I can hear them from inside our old farmhouse.

I sit and hear the call and response of buzzing cicadas, the chirp of crickets during their intermission. The wind rustles off and on through the treetops. And now our old cat has heard me, and she comes over, spreading tan cat hair across my screen. But I don’t mind; I hear her purr as she comes over to relax nearby.

Aside from the gentle clack of my keyboard as I type, I hear no sounds of humans. Occasionally I hear the distant drone of a small piston airplane, and sometimes the faint horn of a train, 6 miles away.

As I look up, I see grass, the harvested wheat field, the trees, and our gravel driveway. Our road is on the other side of a hill. I see no evidence of it from here, but I know it’s there. Maybe 2 or 3 vehicles will pass on a day like today; if they’re tall delivery trucks, I’ll see their roof glide silently down the road, and know the road is there. The nearest paved road is several miles away, so not much comes out here.

I reflect of those times years ago, when this was grandpa’s house, and the family would gather on Easter. Grandpa hid not just Easter eggs, but Easter bags all over the yard. This yard. Here’s the tree that had a nice V-shaped spot to hide things in; there’s the other hiding spot.

I reflect on the wildlife. This afternoon, it’s the insects that I hear. On a foggy, cool, damp morning, the birds will be singing from all the trees, the fog enveloping me with unseen musical joy. On a quiet evening, the crickets chirp and the coyotes howl in the distance.

Now the old cat has found my lap. She sits there purring, tail swishing. 12 years ago when she was a kitten, our daughter hadn’t yet been born. She is old and limps, and is blind in one eye, but beloved by all. Perfectly content with life, she stretches and relaxes.

I have visited many wonderful cities in this world. I’ve seen Aida at the Metropolitan Opera, taken trains all over Europe, wandered the streets of San Francisco and Brussels and Lindos, visited the Christmas markets in the lightly-snowy evenings in Regensburg, felt the rumble of the Underground beneath me in London. But rarely do the city people come here.

Oh, some of them think they’ve visited the country. But no, my friends, no; if you don’t venture beyond the blacktop roads, you’ve not experienced it yet. You’ve not gone to a restaurant “in town”, recognized by several old friends. You’ve not stopped by the mechanic — the third generation of that family fixing cars that belong to yours — who more often than not tells you that you don’t need to fix that something just yet. You’ve not sat outside, in this land where regular people each live in their own quiet Central Park. You’ve not seen the sunset, with is majestic reds and oranges and purples and blues and grays, stretching across the giant iMax dome of the troposphere, suspended above the hills and trees to the west. You’ve not visited the grocery store, with your car unlocked and keys in the ignition, unconcerned about vehicle theft. You’ve not struggled with words when someone asks “what city are you from” and you lack the vocabulary to help them understand what it means when you say “none”.

Out there in the land of paved roads and bright lights, the problems of the world churn. The problems near and far: a physical and mental health challenges with people we know, global problems with politics and climate.

But here, this lazy summer afternoon, I forget about the land of the paved roads and bright lights. As it should be; they’ve forgotten the land of the buzzing cicadas and muddy roads.

I believe in impulse, in all that is green,
In the foolish vision that comes out true.
I believe that all that is essential is unseen,
And for this lifetime, I believe in you.

All of the lovers and the love they made:
Nothing that was between them was a mistake.
All that we did for love’s sake,
Was not wasted and will never fade.

All who have loved will be forever young
And walk in grandeur on a summer night
Along the avenue.

They live in every song that is sung,
In every painting of pure light,
In every pas de deux.

O love that shines from every star,
Love reflected in the silver moon;
It is not here, but it is not far.
Not yet, but it will be here soon.

No two days are alike. But this day comes whenever I pause to let it.

May you find the buzzing cicadas and muddy roads near you, wherever you may be.

Poetry from “A Summer Night” by Garrison Keillor

See The World Through the Eyes of a Child, and You Are Free

Because we see things so often, we see them less and less.

Those who live in thanksgiving daily, however, have a way of opening their eyes and seeing the wonders and beauties of this world as though seeing them for the first time.

– Joseph Wirthlin

Today is about dirt. I had to learn about it, again, from my 2-year-old last week.

She and I were playing outside — something we have more time to do right now. She started to roll around in the grass, and asked me to play in the grass, too. As I got close to the ground, I inhaled the wonderfully sweet and earthy scent of spring soil. I hadn’t smelled that in a long time. What an unexpected gift.

This photo is of a child, having a fantastic time with dirt and water. The more bits of Kansas he had on him, the more shrieks of laughter I heard.

It think most adults keep forgetting the joys of simple things like dirt. I am lucky to have children around to remind me. This week, I also had the opportunity to teach my 2-year-old the joys of making big splashes in mud puddles, so maybe I can also remind them on occasion.

See the world as if for the first time; see it through the eyes of a child, and you will suddenly find that you are free.

– Deepak Chopra

Rural Kansas, 2016

(I originally wrote this on March 31, and am sharing it on my blog for the first time today.)

When You Think You’re At the End, You’re At the Beginning

Often when you think you’re at the end of something, you’re at the beginning of something else.

– Fred Rogers

This is sunrise over Kansas. Or maybe sunset. I’m not going to tell you this time, because it doesn’t matter all that much. I love that it (if you don’t over-analyze it) could be either, and also that it looks like the land in the distance fades to a blue ocean.

Is it sunrise or sunset? What is at the horizon? I don’t think it really matters, in the presence of such natural beauty.

Rural Kansas, 2015

So Many Caring People In This World

When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, “Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.” To this day, especially in times of “disaster,” I remember my mother’s words and I am always comforted by realizing that there are still so many helpers – so many caring people in this world.

– Fred Rogers

This photo doesn’t have amazing lighting or fantastic composition. In fact, it looks ordinary. It’s only when you know its story that the beauty shines through.

In 2019, Fremont, NE had been cut off by flooding. People were trying to get in and out of the town, and couldn’t. The only way in or out was from the small airport. About 50 pilots from Nebraska and Iowa (and me from Kansas) came over to help. Every plane you see here — and more that I couldn’t fit in the frame — was at Millard Airport, Omaha, flying people and supplies into and out of Fremont. Estimates are that we flew over 1000 people and tons of supplies that weekend. All safely.

I remember flying the family with a 1-week-old baby that had gone to Omaha for a doctor appointment and then couldn’t get home for three days. I remember the elderly couple and their dog that I flew out of Fremont, the former Marine riding in the co-pilot seat next to me, cracking jokes with me as we went. I remember the group of ladies that were laughing as I gave them the required seat belt briefing, the mom with her kids, the man that had to get to work, and packed a few day’s supplies in his backpack, unsure when he’d be able to get back home. It was the first some had ever been in a plane.

There were so many helpers. People all over Omaha brought supplies to Millard airport. Others had just shown up at both airports to help organize and make lists of passengers and match them up with different size planes. Someone at Millard had a trailer and golf cart for supplies. When I’d land at Fremont, before I was even out of the plane, highschoolers had already swarmed it and were helping to unload supplies or help passengers out. One time when I got back to Millard, I found lunch: a pizza place had donated pizza for the pilots, and then a restaurant in Fremont did too. With so many extra planes in the sky, Omaha ATC was slammed and still did a fantastic job.

I of course took no photos of the people I carried, but I have thought of them often in the last year.

This photo is of Millard airport, Omaha, loading up supplies. Look at all these helpers. I think it’s one of the most beautiful sights I’ve ever seen.

Today there are billions of helpers in this world. The obvious ones: the truck drivers, the health care workers, the grocery store workers. And also the non-obvious ones: all the people that are wearing masks, practicing social distancing, forgoing Christmas gatherings, for the good of others, despite the hardship and heartbreak it may cause.

If you didn’t know the story of this photo, you wouldn’t know these planes were all helpers in time of disaster. We don’t know the story of all the people we see in our world today, but chances are good that many of them are helpers also.

When you know their story, the beauty shines through.

May we all be able to see the beauty that still surrounds us this Christmas.

Joyful is the Dark

“Joyful is the dark
  coolness of the tomb,
waiting for the wonder
  of the morning.

Never was that midnight
  touched by dread and gloom;
darkness was the cradle
  of the dawning.”

Brian Wren

Most of us are not personally experiencing symptoms of a pandemic virus, but with all the changes around us, with all the worries within us, many of us have been touched by dread and gloom.

I can find many layers of meaning in this poem. Today I think this poem excerpt reminds us to find the joy where we are, in the moment we are. Are we just waiting for the morning? Or do we take advantage of this pause to gaze up at the beautiful colors of the night? Are we defined by this moment, or do we define it? We are OK right now, so let this time be the cradle of something beautiful.

If you haven’t noticed the moon in this photo, zoom in. I don’t see dread and gloom in this photo. I see color, and hope, and beauty.

Rural Kansas, 2017

O, Sunlight!

“O, Sunlight! The most precious gold to be found on Earth.”

– Roman Payne

There is much beauty in this world, much hope, much life. All we need to do is pause, breathe, and take a moment to see it. It might be as simple as the gift of sunlight. I hope you all have moments of sunlight and delight each day.

Marion County, KS, April 2013

Every Storm Runs Out Of Rain

“Every storm runs out of rain.”

– Maya Angelou

There are a lot of rain clouds in life these days. May we all remember that days like this one are behind us — and also ahead of us.

Every storm runs out of rain.


That was the start of a series of photos from my collection & quotes I shared with friends during the initial lockdown in spring. I’ll be sharing some here.

And here we all are, still dealing with this — and it’s more severe in a lot of ways. One of my colleagues won’t be able to see his parents this Christmas for the first time in over 40 years.

But this storm will run out rain.

And look how the scene changed, in just a few minutes. This is coming!